I have had the most pivotal point in my 40 day lifestyle change. And it hit me so hard that I was blown away almost to the point of tears.

Let’s Tarantino and back up a bit.

I woke up and went to work thankfully accepting all the birthday wishes everyone was giving me. I then thought about my grandma… It’s been less than a year since she died and I was looking forward to a corny card in the mail with an old fashioned signature and twenty bucks inside. That’s when so many emotions flared up inside me, my brain and body just stopped to think about her with my grandpa… I felt so sad. I realized that each day that passes, the next event in your life growing up is the scariest day you’ve faced. You think you have it under control and then the next event in your life completely blows you away.

Ben folds once said,
“…Everything for the rest of this life is gonna be another thing where it’s like, ‘I’m tough enough, I’ve taken this’ and then the next thing coming up is going to take you completely by surprise; it’s gonna be the scariest thing you’ve ever done. Everyone has had the scariest thing they have ever done right on the horizon coming up.”

I continued into the night to celebrate my birthday at Chili’s. The entire time I was contemplating if I should break lent for a day to celebrate my birthday. Now I’ll try to break this down as easily as possible. If you get lost, just keep reading and you’ll catch on:

The whole entire point of doing this 40 day trial is not to stay in shape or lose a couple pounds (though it is a nice plus!) The reason I do this every year is to see if I still have control over my body and it’s cravings for useless items that my mind believes it needs. So with that said, I had an internal struggle between me and myself. I though if I eat the cake, then I have failed to tell myself what I can and can’t control. On the other side of the spectrum, if I don’t eat it, I’m not celebrating my birthday. After all, you only turn 21 once.

The fact is that I had this pressure on myself and I started to get frustrated. But then it hit me: I need to prove to myself that eating this will not start a chain reaction of binging on junk food. So I took two bites and enjoyed that molten lava chocolate cake but, I had no further appetite to eat the entire thing. I sat back and relaxed in my seat cause I knew then that I have overcome my obsession for sugar. I had no craving whatsoever to wash it down with a coke or beg for more. I was truly happy with myself.

Overall, it’s been a great birthday and a pivotal point in my life. This is an experience that I won’t soon forget.

So it’s day 21 of my 40 day lifestyle change and I’m very used to what meals that are accustomed to healthy eating. I no longer scream myself to sleep from lack of sugar or go into hysteria from no baconators from Wendy’s or Chicken carbonaras from Quiznos. Check the vid:

When the weather is right, I love taking my scooter into the mountains and around the beautiful valley of Utah. I figured I would go out, shoot a quick qik video, and enjoy the rest of my Monday. It was an absolutely beautiful day today. And a very cool night. I’m sure I’ll sleep well knowing that this change of food habits is showing myself how much self control I have over what I eat as well as keeping my body in good health.

I do wake up in a cold sweat from time to time thinking about powdered jelly filled donuts though. I do want to challenge anyone that wants to ask any questions or present any articles to email me over at sean@sean-blake.com and I’ll be sure to reply. Heck, I’ll probably make a video for it!

Sean OUT!

But not my 40 days of my lifestyle change! I’ve been recording a few videos and checking around with different dietitians. I’ll post videos with those dietitians later this month. As for this post, I wanted to make a simple post about a dessert thats fairly good for you (if you lay off the cool whip….yeah you.)

Strawberries with grapes and cool whip. It’s a fairly simple dessert that’s healthy and quite tasty!

Simply cut up 6-8 strawberries, throw in some grapes, a fork and cool whip, and you are one set person. All you need is either a chick flick or your girlfriend…..to…..break up with you…… *cries profusely*

Items ate/drank today:

Water
salad
Grapes and strawberries with cool whip
Spicy chicken sammich

I went to lunch and got a salad. I was thinking, a little bit of salad, some dressing, maybe some bread. Instead, they slaughter half a cow, throw on a palm leaf and the italian prime minister for a meal. This thing is freaking massive. Check the video:

Items ate/drank today:

A salad the size of a small baby
salad
more salad
They cut a full fist sized tomato into fours. Thats how big it was.
Water
a handful of cereal

Day 11 and I was at work designing away. I then had the urge for water and strolled upstairs to the company fridge. The fridge door was ajar. as I thought who would leave the door open, I realized… they were restocking the fridge with my arch rival and admirer. Diet caffeine free coke. I held it and stared at it like the ring from Sauron. I fled out of the room before my actions took over me. Check the video:

I came home and decided to help with a food tip:

Items ate/drank today:

Quiznos traditional sammich
casserole
Sunny D
Water
Peanuts